I’m so lethargic. Yesterday tummy pain again cum diarrhoea. Made me so restless.

I’m coming up with something but still keeping it a secret for the time being. Have so much to learn from SL and hopefully, we can strive forward together for what we want both in career and interests and reap great results!

Thanks so much for hearing me out. I felt so comfortable then! Good luck for your test huh!~


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Reunion Dinners

I cant believe I got so sick from a mere minor flu. It has escalated to a full-blown unstoppable continuous sneezing hazard, coupled with cough and mild sorethroat. I had taken a total of 3 pills, some cough syrup, lozenges before I’m finally better after 9 hours. Panadol really sucks lah. For flu, LEMSIP is better. Haiz. I dont know why everytime I come back from MIL’s place, I will get running nose. Everytime. Really dont understand why.

I must get well, for tomorrow, apart from going to temple to pray, I’m going MIL’S house to bai nian cum dinner and drinks with the girls. They said the zodiac dog fan4 tai4 sui4(again) and mummy isaccompanying us to go pray together later. They say for dogs 2009 will be an even worse year than 2008. I really cant imagine as 2008 was really bad enough.

I had a wonderful reunion dinner on sat and sun(just now). Sat was at home and sun(just now) was at MIL’S place. Our home teppanyakki steamboat was spoilt and it was replaced by a lousier one whereby only steamboat OR teppanyakki can be used at ONE time. I only knew it before the dinner. Felt so sian as I always prefer teppanyakki than steamboat. Shall buy new one next year. Thank god MIL’S place got! But I was pretty disappointed because there was only 1 plate of sliced pork as they’re more of vege person. I’m actually prepared for it. Nevertheless, there were loads of prawns, cheese sausages, mini abalone and abalone and the soup was great.

Had a wonderful chat with MIL just now and I’m very happy finally I have a feeling that I’m truly a part of the family. Before today, as MIL they’re very reserved people and I hardly visited them before, so they did not open up that promptly. Sometimes you cant expect people to open up that quickly as you just because you can. Being the ultra-sensitive me, I admitted I did jump into conclusion and felt bad for nothing previously.

While I was washing dishes just now after the dinner, MIL said, “let me do lah. Until I cannot do already then let you do.” with a smile.

My nose suddenly become sour and I said, “mother, why say that? You’re still very young and healthy.” She then said, “aiya I’m old liao loh..” I couldnt hear the rest as I’m suddenly overwhelmed with sadness. =( Guess it’s an inevitable fact that our parents will pass on earlier than us…but…haiz…anyway it’s new year, our reunion dinner. I pushed the thought aside to have the dinner.

I also got to know today MIL is suffering from minor stomach pains which the chinese sensei diagnosed as 慢性盲肠炎. I had the 急性 one before and had the op when I’m 10. I know exactly how painful it is. MIL’s condition might be milder but suffering from this constant pain isnt a good thing afterall.

Surprisingly, dearie did not know that at all. He said MIL never mention anything about her health to prevent him from worrying about her, as if it’s the perfect reason for not knowing anything, always. It might be true. But really, I’m sometimes so sick of his insensitivity and how uncaring he is. I’ll better be careful with myself especially during my older years because he probably wont be concerned about me. Like they said, see how a guy/girl treats his family and you’ll know how he will treat his wife.

He’s just that buay zi dong, BZD(BuzeeD) which is the nick I gave him BECAUSE he’s totally BUAY Zi DONG. If you dont say anything, he wont do. If you dont say you’re sick, he WONT KNOW you’re sick until you’re like coughing till want to DIE liao or created a mountain from soaked tissue paper. THEN HE KNOW YOU’RE SICK. After that he will toss you some panadol, without even checking it’s for flu. In the end, I still have to find the correct medicine myself. Thanks to MIL who helped me find Panadol Cold Relief just now. Even she cant take it and scolded him for bringing me the wrong medicine. MIL is so sweet! Love.

Is he really that dense or he simply dont care enough or he simply dont know how to care about a person?

During the dinner, I had to tell him TWICE that I dont eat crabstick before he stoped putting crabsticks in my bowl.

Honey, can you ever learn to listen? LISTEN! 聆听!

Sometimes real angry lor. Like after 2 years already, he can still continue to buy me things I dont like to eat or drink. And I’ve repeated many times already. Quite exasperated sometimes. During the HK trip, Zen laughed and said we’re like a pair of 欢喜冤家, because when we squabble or rebuke each other fiercely, it’s very funny but after that we still can go back to normal. I said, “NO! It’s not funny at all to me because at that instance, I REALLY WANT TO STRANGLE HIM ONE! I’m not acting!” They then laughed like hell. It’s just that after we squabble 就算了, we dont put it to heart or remember.

Anyway I told dearie it’s better that we arrange for a medical checkup for MIL after new year to be sure as the chinese sensei is just guessing. Better to be careful. But trust me lor, he will certainly forget about it after the new year. Anyone wanna bet 50 bucks? If he really forget I will bring MIL go. Though it’s better for us to bring together because he can fetch her to and fro with car while I dont drive.

When I was very sick just now, dearie said something which really hurted me alot. He somehow thinks that, no matter how hurting or mean a comment is, if said with a smile means it will CONVERT to a positive comment. I TELL YOU NO. Your English is good, you do know how some WORDS, some sentences are very hurting. And though said with a smile will mellow the effect, it doesnt douse the meaning at all. Can you just THINK for a moment before you speak? Especially when it’s at a wrong timing. What is wrong timing? When I’m SICK OKIE! That’s a wrong timing. Any other wrong timings? When we’re having fun during a festive season, like NEW YEAR. OK?

Being the blunt him, I also dont want to gei gao so much. I’m used to it anyway. I’m also blunt to him, especially the above. Call it an eye for an eye if you want. I’m never an angel, and I never said I am anyway. Anyway no energy to make a fuss with him when I’m so sick, it’s new year too. This blog is just an avenue to vent. Perhaps what he said was true bah. I will take note. Though dont push your luck baby.

This post has been very whiny and full of complaints. YA. I’m whiny. But do give me allowances as a neglected sick patient is always more EMO and grouchy!

Happy new year to all! Gong Xi Fa Cai!