爱你 leh!!

Me: Dear!!  我爱你 leh!! *sparkle in the eyes*

Hubby: (wary) 然后 leh?

Me: 可以帮我拿 laptop 进房间吗? Heez!

Hubby: (=.=)””” Okok

Me: 谢谢 Dear!!

Hubby: Dear!! 我更爱你 leh!! 你可以自己拿吗?

Me: Hahahaha!

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Just sharing some funny stuff. Of course please dont be mistaken that I always ask hubby help me do this and that ok. I’m merely shag out today with all the housework, bathing Vickki cum ironing his shirts. Naturally we always help each other when one party is shag out. =)

Oh…one good tip to share for great relationships:

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Always say please and thank you! 可以。。。吗? And 谢谢, no matter howwww tiny the favor might be. It’s to show your appreciation and of course respect. =D

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Till now, I always thank him for washing the dishes(occasionally) or hanging the clothes(daily), and he always thank me when I cook for him, even if it’s maggie mee….or iron his clothes etc….or rather…we thank each other for almost everything la.

Do not underestimate the power of P’s and Q’s. =D

Ending the super short entry with a cute pic of Vickki. She’ll always pester me to carry her or let her sleep on my lap on her first day of bath. And she can stay there all day until I have cramps. Love her lots. =D

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Reminiscence for 2010

Dearie is coming home now to accompany me. Which of course makes my day. =D Also, the medicine I just took also made me feel better. This might be a good time for me to pen some thoughts for reminiscence since year 2010 had again, passed in a flash.

To quote Elaine, “Resolutions anyone? But I have never been one to keep to my resolutions so I dun bother making them in the very first place.”

I was giggling while I read that statement because it reminded me of myself. Just that I never have the guts to admit it. I really admire her for how candid and natural she is. Before I read her blog(I dare not claim I know her despite we have emailed few times), I’ve never know such a humble, simple and down-to-earth beauty exists. =) I’ve learned from her to be more truthful to myself and not be weigh down by this invisible cloak call “pride”. Sometimes we see many people who looked much more fortunate than us, then sub-consciously we tried to mimic what they do, how they carry themselves etc, when actually it’s so much more comforting, fulfilling and meaningful to just be ourselves and the way we are. =)

Another lesson that I’ve learnt over the past year is never assume everyone knows how you think and understands your intention no matter how close you think you are to them. In conjunction to the mentioned point, do not hesitate to explain yourself further if there’s a tiny chance that people might misunderstand your intentions.

Dont ever think that, “Aiya, she should know I’m not this kinda person. We’ve known each other for years!”

No, dont ever assume that, unless it’s with your super super close friends. Hmm, to date, there’s only 3 friends whom I really dare to say what I really think(100% without holding back) to them. As I’m sure they know I’ve absolutely no evil intentions nor hidden meanings behind my words. Of course, other than the meaningful friendship, it got to do with their personality as well. =D For other good friends, I just dare not gamble. Not anymore. =X

Sigh, but I heard a kinda meaningful quote before, also from Elaine’s blog.

<blockquote> Dont bother to explain. Your besties dont need it and your enemies wont believe it.”</blockquote>

Sometimes, I’m not one who thinks too much before talking, in front of people whom I hold the dearest. Dont you wish for no pretense and hypocrisy infront of your closest? I dont see the need to phrase my sentences ever so carefully as if treading on thin ice or say patronizing things which I dont meant at all. Life is pretty hard already, why make it harder? I understand there’s a word call “tact”, I’ll keep that in mind. However, it’s my mistake to assume people can accept what I can accept, or nonchalant with things which I pretty much bo chup. There are some stuff which I can accept whilst other people cant. Similarly, there are things which other people can accept while I cant. We are all made differently afterall. So well, sometimes, it’s essential to understand different individuals’ limits; dont cross their line.

To quote Robert T. Kiyosaki,

Teach and You Shall Receive – Whenever you feel “short” or in “need” of something, give what you want first and it will come back in buckets. That is true for money, a smile, love, friendship … I just trust that the principle of reciprocity is true”.

I used to believe that was true. Hmm…….I believed in the natural goodness of everyone and there’s always reason behind how a person’s personality was molded.

For example, Ali might be egoistic because he was not loved by his parents since young and all his ego is a wall of pride to protect himself.

Actually egoistic is not so much of a big thing lah, because it doesnt cause any harm or distress to anyone. This is merely an example. Of course there are other flaws out there which are less…acceptable.

I will always give chances…or accommodates….to the extent that through years…I’m accustomed already. It became a habit and well, sometimes it’s difficult to try to reverse your situation when it has been like that for many many years. For example, if Guy A always drives Guy B home because Guy B dont drive(despite it’s not convenient at all) for years, it’s pretty hard to blurt out one fine day, “Erm…actually your house is not really on the way, nor is it near to mine. Do you mind to go home yourself?” Because Guy B has been so accustomed to you fetching him back and forth that he’ll probably be offended that you suddenly dont wish to ferry him.

This is merely an example, but you’ll get the gist of it.

It might be a tinnnny thing but when every tinnnnny thing gets repeated over and over again, through years and years, with no reciprocation, it can be very….well you know, disheartening. And we always wish to be reciprocated you see. Even if it’s once in a month, it’s also good! However, I grew tired of waiting to be reciprocated. I’m pretty sadistic in nature actually, sometimes I kept finding excuses for my treasured ones that even dearie find me pretty amazing. Lol. But well, it’s always a sucky feeling to wake up from a dream, an illusion. To slap yourself awake to the cold, hard, realistic truth, that you have always been the self-sacrificial one. Hmm….pretty much reminds you of some BGR problems isnt it? Yeah…kinda similar in some aspects. But well, cry all you want over it. Cry one night! It is more than enough for any person’s worth, after that, you’ll move on! =) Remember there’s many other people who deserves you more. =)

I’m still a softie at heart actually. Sometimes through time or a small gift, I’ll forget the whole thing happens. =)

Another 9 days, it will be 4 years pa-tor anniversary with dearie. Haha. Wow, we were both pretty amazed that it has been 4 years! It feels shorter. =) Pretty good, meaning still honeymoon period. Muahahaha. I think both of us has really changed in many ways.

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Him

He treats me better now.

I shant elaborate how he used to treat me(it’s not thattttt bad la) in the past, it’s not my style. What matters is that, he treats me much much better now. I really appreciate how he cares more for my feelings and especially when I’m sick. His EQ also improved alot. He now knows how to say words of appreciation as well as more zi-dong where my mummy is concerned. 比较会做人了! Though, not the other kind of “做人” okie? Dont notti notii.

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Me

I’m milder in temper now, I think, towards him. Lol. I think I used to be more hard-headed and high-prided. It’s not my habit to express how bad I feel in every aspect because I see that as being “soft” and “vulnerable”. So weird, my character is so much like a guy. But now, for example, when I’m sick, I’ll…whimper in a way and request for attention in a soft way. LOL. Not always though. It’s never like that in the past. I will only put up a black face and expect him to know that I feel bad and come comfort me without being asked! Which of course he dont lah! Guys are still very dense, just buy that. So end up, I’ll throw temper and demand why he cant be more caring when I need him most etc. Then we’ll end up quarreling.

Sometimes, 以柔制刚 是对的! Haha.

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We’re still considering should we have a mini-celebration for our 4 years pa-tor anniversary, given our busy schedules. Hmm……….see how. =) Flying Pattaya on Sunday.

My dearie is so funny lah. Just now we saw some…..what huh…cherry blossoms huh…the kind of trees which people put up during Chinese New Year, and I wondered out loud;

Me: Oooo…..New year liao, what should we do with our Christmas tree?

Dearie: We put ang bao on the tree loh

Me: Oh! Good idea hor!

Dearie: Then moon cake festival, we put mini lanterns loh.

Me: Er…………

Dearie: Then 端午节, we hang mini bah-zhang lor.

Me: Wahahahaha

Dearie: The Christmas tree so poor thing, it must be thinking, “我明明是Christmas tree,为什么要乱乱挂bah-zhang 在我身上leh?

Me: Hahahahahaha!

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Let us all embrace a better us in the new year and I love each and everyone of my friends and I thank all of you for loving me just the way I am. =D Smuacks Smuacks!! Please do treasure all your precious around you and let’s not take everyone for granted!

 

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I hate it when I become a emo monster during this time of the month!

But really cant help it.

Throat is dry and painful. Sneezing non-stop. No much appetite. Moody. Lethargic. And tears just feel like falling for no reason!

Thank god for an understanding hubby…though I feel bad for being a “scorpion”, demanding for his attention.

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Mushy mushy

As much as how annoying I might sound on my very own blog,

I have to say, I feel so much happiness every night before I sleep because there is dearie to kiss me goodnight every night.

Just seeing his asleep or sleepy face mumbling sorry that he had to sleep already and goodnight just makes me feel like kissing him on the cheeks and tuck him to sleep. =) If he’s too “senseless” to give me my goodnight kiss whenever I’m home late, I will claim myself. Muahahahaha. Still, he will mumble “good night dear, love you” things like that. And then, “tud”, went back to sleep. Haha

Unlike myself, he can totally go back to sleep even when he’s being awaken. =P That’s why I dare to “disturb” him sometimes. =P

Some people question, “how come you so late go home, your hubby also dont mind?”

I will reply, “what’s there to mind when he knows in my heart there’s only him?”

Of course that’s pretty cheesy but the main reason is probably because there is trust.

He will message me before he goes to sleep when I’m out late with my dear girlies mostly(unless he dozed off) and I will always “report” where I am out of my own accord, just to put him at ease and assure him I’m..*ahem*..sober.

As much as how I’m showered with attention from others when I was younger, it’s just so different when someone you love like your hubby kisses you before you sleep and sleeps just beside you. The feeling is just so sweet…and blissful…

Okay~ Now I sounded damn gu-niang~

3 unhappy things today =(

1) After checking Co’s email. Sigh.
2) A friend blamed me for “shua3” him because he came down from Tampines to Jurong to wanna join us for mahjiong but we left, hence he made a wasted trip.

The thing is, not I jio him one leh. Is Iv who jio him. And I dont understand why? We already have more than 4 players. We had 5, just that 2 of them are couple so they take turns to play.

And I told that friend I’m going with my friend and she dont want to stay late, and if she leaves after 2 rounds, I also wont stay. However, I thought since Iv jio him, he will stay and continue to play. Iv + Couple + him = 4 legs mah.

But Iv didnt stay! He left for dragonfly and it’s not our fault!

In the first place, I didnt jio him.
In the second place, I also didnt promise I will play till late or wait until he come.

So why KP me?

3) My curls didnt last. Curls become waves instead. Kinda sad.

You might be better off without me in your life. =)

I’m being polite in my title okie~ =P

(P/S Written this post some time back but no time to edit and post it up! Here it is, I thought I need to tell my lovely friends/readers that I’m alive, kicking and very happy, as usual. =D )

As much as 一种米养百种人, as much as sometimes I meet annoying people from all walks of life, I’m glad that whenever I’m down, I always have very good friends around me who showed me concern in every different ways.

Some meet me up with for drinks
Some listen to me grumble over dinners
Some type long long messages to me in Facebook

I’m really touched. And very paiseh! =P

Though rest assured I will also always be there whenever you need me. That is, if you want me to. =)

At my age, I would say most of us have a lot of commitments, alot of inspirations and alot of things which need our attention. I think I’m considered pretty lucky among some of my friends….yeah…I heard that many times and some friends dont understand why I can get emotional over some minor things. *paiseh*

I know I’m very 幸福. =) Er…maybe because too 幸福 le….so whenever some tinnnyyyy, minor thing which suddenly seems too pessimistic to know, I’ll get….you know, emotional. =P

Hmm……I really feel I used to be made of tougher material. I’ve been through so much in my life to finally come to where I am now; having a peaceful and blissful life especially with my most beloved beside me. You cant imagine the life I had previously when everyday there were quarrels between parents in the house, young siblings crying day and night, the constant worry that I will be unable to finish school because of the inability to pay school fees.

During those difficult times, it’s like……every little obstacle in life is like a challenge and I always take them up as if it’s as common climbing a flight of stairs. I dont like them but at least, I wont get emotional over them or worse, afraid of them. In my mind, I only focus on how to conquer because I was all alone. I know I have to do it and I MUST do it. Nobody can help me.

I hereby conclude the reason for me being getting more and more sissy and gu-niang is because life has been fantastic and simply great. I’ve been so spoilt that I cant even handle obstacles which I used to snort in it’s face. =X

I even re-read my old blog and alot of memories came flowing back.

I remembered how difficult some of my old employers were and how I dare to retaliate them with snort and wit.

I remembered how cynical I was with men after an ex broke my heart, that I simply forgot how to love.

I remembered how I used to say whatever I want on my blog, to my friends and anyone who crosses my path, to the extent that people call me Little Chilli Padi because I was so damn guai lan. But weirdly, I was actually..erm…quite well-liked by both sexes then!

Now that I think of it, it’s so bizarre. How can anyone like me when I was so foul-mouthed and guai lan back then? I mean, after 6 years in sales, I have certainly toned down and improved my temper and learned to be more tactful. But I was really…….very jialat a decade ago.

For example, if a guy whom I dont like profess his undying love to me, I will say things like, “I will never like you. Never. You understand? Now leave me alone.”

I’m that mean! But dont understand why some guys just 犯贱 lah. Their eyes tiak stamp I think.

Strangely enough, after I became “nicer”, my number of suitors dropped. Perhaps old liao and got uglier. Wahahahaha. =P

Actually I feel men, as in Earthlings, get more and more complicated and sensitive when one grows up. 1 good example will be, when I just got graduated not long and was getting into my first job, all my classmates were enthusiastically discussing about which industry, which company we got into and how much wages we were getting.

Back then, we were really innocent(at least I was).

Just try asking the question of wages merely 3 years down the road(even it’s close friend) and all the attitudes will change.

You see, we change. Human change. We just got more…complicated…guarded…and more competitive by nature.

By competitive, it’s not only subjected to career, it even extended to popularity with guys.

Sigh~ Dont understand why? Some girls can get damn competitive at the tender age of 15. And it got worse when they reached 17-18. And some dont even stop after they reached 28-30 or even after they’re married.

Sometimes I think, why is it their ages increase but their level of maturity never?

Perhaps I’m never a beauty to start with so I can hardly care about competing for popularity with guys. But some girls, most of them gorgeous, can get so insane with their competition in popularity! And I’m not even talking about guys whom they like. I really dont like the quarrels which sprang from my existence especially when I did nothing to incite those displeasure. ZzZzz.

Haha Enough of yakking away~ Yes! I need to get all cynical and skeptical again to some people who’s not worth it because sometimes it just doesnt pay to be too nice or too truthful, even though your intentions are kind. It’s like I “exerted” much time and tact cum re-adjust my emotions to phrase my sentences ever so carefully to them so that I wont affect them emotionally in any way. BUT the words which sprouted out from their mouths are just oh-my-god, as if they never think with their head or consider how other people feel at all~

*breathe deeply*

Okie fine, perhaps tried as I did, I’m still not as tactful as needed but since I’m not the only person who has problems with those people who has problems with me, I guess I dont have much of a problem. LOL~

No lah just kidding. I’m not perfect, I know very well. =P I will continue to try to improve myself. But if I really just cant please some people, then I just need to avoid them because I dont wish to cause unhappiness to them. I wish them happiness always. =)

I truly believe I still can be very happy with my current group of lovelies and most of all, my beloved hubby who doted me to bits and my caring and cute mummy. =D

I know….

I know I shouldnt feel…dejected….

But I cant help it…. =(

Sigh………………………

I really hate to have too much emotions sometimes.

Why I always care how people feel but nobody care how I feel leh?

Beneath all that tough and strong exterior, I’m still a sensitive and emotional being.

How I wish I can be as practical, pragmatic and emotion-less like some people(absolutely NOT pin-pointing anyone in particular. Just feel there are people like that in this world).

I think I will be happier.

Sigh……………………..